Not Pregnant

Despite the fact that everyone I am normally pregnant with is going to have a baby and I am about due to get pregnant. I am not pregnant and not trying to get pregnant. In fact we are preventing (none of you business how) me from getting pregnant.
I have imagined myself consumed with children. Having a child that is in high school and still having little ones around but that was awhile ago and my three little ones are a hand full. Don't get me wrong they are really good boys. I think I've got it pretty easy compared to others. Like the ones that have girls. I think girls are generally harder then boys in many ways.
I think I want to try one more time for a little girl despite the above statement but I just don't think right now is right for us. I do want my kids close together so why not right now? Well... I don't know it just doesn't feel right. Maybe because I don't want to be pregnant during the summer even though that is not a very good excuse.
My boys are just about 2 years apart. If I got pregnant right now then the baby now would be over 2 1/2 years apart from the new one. Not that bad right? except I am not going to get pregnant right now and I'm not sure when I will get pregnant. I don't want them to be so far apart that I would have to have another close after so they can have a buddy. But I don't want more then just one more.
Anyways so there's my daily "dilemma".
What do you think?

To Do:

I like writing lists. I think it helps me with things I need to do or get done.
I of course have the usual grocery list but I also make list of what to bring places like camping. Fine I guess but I also have lists of how to properly clean the kitchen. I have a list of what I want to get my kids for this Easter. I have a list to get the kids next Christmas. I have a list of what I want to get in the future. My husband wants a big screen t.v. I want a new mattress. I am almost tempted to make a list of lists that I want to make.
What do you think?

Money Money Money

What kind of say does the Lord have over what I do with my money?
As long as I pay what he asks (tithes, and to the poor) what else should I be doing with my money.
I have to admit that I am not the most fashionable person but I recognize when I see something I think is cute but I could never justify paying over $100 for shoes. I've never seen shoes that cute. I could buy a shirt for only $2.00 at Walmart but it wouldn't "call my name" as my sister would put it. But I like to go more appealing then a $2.00 shirt.
So... If i give my tithes and give to the poor can I do whatever I want with the rest as long as it's Moral? I am leaning toward No.
When my husband and I decide to scrip and save for that house someday (maybe this year) we will only get a modest house. Sometimes I like to drive by huge houses and ask him if that is modest. He always says no. Do we need a room for each of our kids? Would we like a room for each of our kids? Would it be easier if they just had their own room?
I am not a simple person but sometimes simple is just nice. My little apartment isn't elegant but I can clean it in 3 hours (the whole thing).
My husband has a Great job and we do well but we probably won't ever buy a new car. It's just kind of a waist of money to us. Yes there is lots of good reasons to buy new but we got such great deals on the cars we own. I don't think we could ever get such a great deal on a new car. Even they eventually break down.
So there's another soap box what do you think?

amnesia

I was reading a short story about a woman who was in a car accident and lost 10 years of her memory. No Husband No kids No old boy friend.
What would you want to forget?
Of course I wouldn't want to forget my husband or my children but if I didn't have a choice with that, How far back would I go?
Let's see...
Maybe my first marriage. yes I was married before but I have known my ex-husband since I was in elementary so I wouldn't want to go that far.
What about old boyfriends? Well there was good times and bad times so I guess I would want to forget right before I started dating my first husband but after I started dating that guy with the leather jacket I am glad to be finished with him.
What do you think?

We're Baaack!!

We managed to go without Internet for about a month but we are back now.
It's only been a half a day but we're happy to be back.
Even my kids missed (pbskids.org).
Post more later.
Happy Holidays.

My Children

This is a picture of my three boys. For some privacy I have given them nick names. "Titan", "Hunter", and "Fig Tree". If your just browsing around blogs and see mine or your my close family I want you to enjoy my blog but I also want to keep some things about us private. I hope you understand and can respect that. Thanks Jillysunflower

Halloween

Halloween was fun as usual. Ammon actually didn't have to work this year so it was great to have him aroound and help with the kids, costumes, candy, pictures, ect. Every Friday we get together with Ammon's family and some neighbors and play games. Here is a picture of the adults. I did make the dress I am wearing. I had fun making it even though while talking to Titan I asked him if I had a job and he said. "Yes you take care of us you cook and you sew ALOT!" so I guess we are glad I'm done with that project. Isn't that wig HUGE? I went to Titan's school to help in his class and you wouldn't believe the stares I got and a couple of thumbs up to. I think next year I'll play it low key and go as a cereal killer don't they just look like everyone else?